Weekend Burn Out

I can't believe that the weekend flew by like it did. Maybe it was just me. Robert came home Thursday and we planned what we thought would be two short days of activity and he would be back on the road Saturday. We were wrong. They didn't give him a load over the weekend, so we spent the weekend together also.

First of all let me say that I have found a new found love for Ralph and Kacoos. We went to Shreveport on Friday. We saw Jr. He made my heart melt because Robert was giving him the "you know I love you right speech." Well in the middle of the speech Robert asked Jr did he think that Robert was a good daddy and Jr responded with a quick no. I was floored and I looked at Robert and u could see his heart just break into pieces. Well he remained cool and said well Jr. I understand that you may feel like I don't do what I should. Right when he said that Jr said, "No Daddy its not that. I don't feel like you are a good daddy because you are an awesome daddy." He left me speechless. At that point Robert just hugged him and told him that everything would be okay and that he was going to take care of him. I think I cried harder than the two of them. :) We wanted to take him to eat and shop with us but of course we couldn't.

Next I went to do a little shopping for myself. And NOTE: If your shirt is so small that you have to continue to pull at it.....Do Not...I repeat DO NOT wear it in public...especially to work if you work in a clothing store. After shopping in the Avenue for a while I went to the counter to check out. MISTAKE! The lady behind the counter should have switched places with me and she needed to be buying new clothes, new hair do and new attitude. If you don't like your job, Change IT! My shopping experience would have been great if the ppl that worked in the stores had better attitudes.

After shopping we headed for Ralph and Kacoo's and when we pulled in the parking lot starving half to death we faced our biggest fear....that we would have to wait for a while to eat. The parking lot was slammed full of ppl. We ended up parking under the I-20 overpass. Well we walked in and were seated immediately....a very good sign. We ordered our food and within 5 minutes it was on the table and we were eating. The only bad part about the whole event was there was this little boy that looked exactly like Ester from the movie Orphan staring at me the entire time. He won the staring game....usually if a kid keeps staring at me I stare back until they look off....I know that is wrong but hey u gotta teach them a lesson. LOL. Anyway, after staring at him for so long I was so creeped out til I just dropped my head. They better check that kid. He is not normal. We ate, got full, and then walked slowly to the car. We were so full that we just sat in the car for about 15 minutes trying to get ourselves together. LOL.

It was a very nice trip. Saturday was spent in the bed watching television. Sunday was too but that is due to the major headache I had. So now....here I am starting a new work week and Robert back on the road. I thank God for change and continue to pray for even more change. God is truly wonderful.

Thoughts

I was sitting at my desk earlier and thinking of the small things that God has blessed me with. I was amazed at the fact that the little that I do have is a lot to someone else. Immediately I praise God for His works. He deserves praise at all times. 1 John 5:4 (New Living Translation) says, For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith.

We graduated a training class today and I looked at each of them and it makes my heart full because even though I did not teach them a thing they were telling me thank you. One lady even said that my presence and spirit made it worthwhile. That's one thing that we have to realize...attitude can and WILL make or break you. I saw these people walk into this class as strangers just 2 short months ago and they walked out today as family. They spent the earlier part of the morning exchanging phone numbers and addresses so they could keep in touch. Then they sat down and ate together, but I was pleased because before they ate they prayed. That you don't see a lot of anymore. That leads me to say this....if they can meet up and pull together and become a "family" then why can't our real family members pull together and become a family. That is something I pray for and it drains me to think of the idea of my family going back and forth with one another. I pray that they realize that they only have each other and should move pass the past and love and support one another. We can't dwell on what happened because when God calls us home and ask why we did something we can't say cause she did this or she did that. That answer will leave u sitting outside the gates of heaven. So today I pray this....if anyone has a problem with a family member release it....tell God it has been removed. Then once you release it, pray for the person and persons that you have the problem with and also ask God to grant you the ability to handle them. But while you are praying for the other party don't forget to ask GOD to change YOU most of all. It is a beautiful thing to see yourself changing. I am changing right now myself. It feels great.

In the beginning...

I decided to start a blog so I will be able to look back at it to watch how my life has progressed (prayerfully). I have noticed that a lot of ppl that blogs using have children and post pics of the babies regularly. Well as of right now...I don't have any kids. I just want to express things and ideas that I have. I am a few shorts months from being 30 and I have sooooooo many ideas on where I would like for my future to go due to the fact that I graduate college on December 19th....yea me!

Well let me see where I want to start. Ok maybe we should start from the beginning. I was born January 6, 1980 in Shreveport, LA. My parents are LaRitta Calhoun and Kenneth Allums. I am an only child on my mom's side and have 3 siblings on my father's side. I was raised by my maternal grandparents and thank God everyday that I was. I think it made me the person that I am today. My mother was diagnosed with Lupus in 1986 and has endured some things in her life. I thank God daily for allowing her to still be in my life, because it is because of Him that she is still here.

I got married to my husband Robert April 7, 2007. It has been a learning experience that I will never forget. We have had several ups and downs but I appreciate it all because it made me a better person and also pulled me closer to God. God has a way of getting your attention. Robert has a nine year old son, Jr., that I adore as if he was my own. We have become a lot closer than before. There is nothing in the world that I would not do for him. My immediate family consists of me, Robert, and Jr. Then there is my granma (Mamoe) -she is a mess, my granpa (Papaw), my mom, my aunt--Lisa, my uncle Devon, and his daughter Alexis (drama queen but I love her to pieces). We don't have much but we also don't want for much either. We fight, argue, disagree but at the end of the day we still have the love to hold us together.

Well I guess that is enough about me. I have some big decisions to make in the near future and hopefully blogging can sort of help me out.